[Thoughtstream] Why do I...
Jul. 14th, 2019 10:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
starseerdrgnWhy do I write? It's not because I seek fans or attention, or even success. Success frightens me more than failure, especially in this day and age. I write because it makes me happy. I actually enjoy it.
Why do I run old hardware, and stick to Windows Vista/7 and Mac 10.6 so heavily? It's not because they're "superior" or anything. They don't exactly have all that many options for modern applications. But I still love them because I'm comfortable with them. I'm not having to deal with endless notifications and distractions, or losing work because of sudden reboots.
Why do I avoid social media? It's not just because of politics or fights. Social media is the reason I met my loved ones, but the current state of it brings me little more than anxiety, fear, and social burnout. It's why I avoid it as much as possible.
I don't know why people seem to think you must have a social media account, or why you have to use the latest and greatest software and hardware, or why I should only write to seek fortune and accomplishment points though likes and faves. I've even had people tell me I'm stupid for not liking Discord, as well as for my dislike of Google and cloud services. I've had people tell me I'm just being stubborn, and in one case, that I'm a "bad net citizen" for using anything but Chrome. (Seriously, what the hell?)
Honestly, everyone has their likes and dislikes. I follow what I enjoy, and people who dislike it really don't have any say in that matter. My life isn't something for society to control. I'm not a "public figure", and I refuse to act like I should be one. I'm not going to tell someone how to live their life, and all I ask is for others to respect me in the same way. Sadly, this is actually too much for some people to comprehend, going so far as to even coerce and control others in regards to their personal friendships.
There's just too much negativity out there, and for some of us--including myself--it's best to just step back and do what's needed to keep our own happiness afloat. Sometimes, that's can be as simple as doing something we like, or using something we enjoy, or staying away from what makes us unhappy. Sometimes, we need more than that.
Whatever it is you need, I hope you find it. I hope you find something to keep you happy in some way.
Why do I run old hardware, and stick to Windows Vista/7 and Mac 10.6 so heavily? It's not because they're "superior" or anything. They don't exactly have all that many options for modern applications. But I still love them because I'm comfortable with them. I'm not having to deal with endless notifications and distractions, or losing work because of sudden reboots.
Why do I avoid social media? It's not just because of politics or fights. Social media is the reason I met my loved ones, but the current state of it brings me little more than anxiety, fear, and social burnout. It's why I avoid it as much as possible.
I don't know why people seem to think you must have a social media account, or why you have to use the latest and greatest software and hardware, or why I should only write to seek fortune and accomplishment points though likes and faves. I've even had people tell me I'm stupid for not liking Discord, as well as for my dislike of Google and cloud services. I've had people tell me I'm just being stubborn, and in one case, that I'm a "bad net citizen" for using anything but Chrome. (Seriously, what the hell?)
Honestly, everyone has their likes and dislikes. I follow what I enjoy, and people who dislike it really don't have any say in that matter. My life isn't something for society to control. I'm not a "public figure", and I refuse to act like I should be one. I'm not going to tell someone how to live their life, and all I ask is for others to respect me in the same way. Sadly, this is actually too much for some people to comprehend, going so far as to even coerce and control others in regards to their personal friendships.
There's just too much negativity out there, and for some of us--including myself--it's best to just step back and do what's needed to keep our own happiness afloat. Sometimes, that's can be as simple as doing something we like, or using something we enjoy, or staying away from what makes us unhappy. Sometimes, we need more than that.
Whatever it is you need, I hope you find it. I hope you find something to keep you happy in some way.
